2012'S RESOLUTION
Academic
1. stay in top three position in class !
2. straight As for STPM trials...
Relationship
3. go through the ups and downs as a couple with ubi =))
4. help ubi with his studies and hopefully he achieve what he wants and share it with me, hahahahahah !
5. treat ubi better because he really loves me, heheheh !
Self improvement
6. stop procrastinating and finish everything on that very same day !
7. more discipline, integrity, rational, respect and patient...
8. get lower than 53kg ! ZOMG !
9. to sleep before 11pm on school days !
10. treat everyone around me better, they deserve it !
11. be more humble
Random
12. dye strands of hair blue, gothic !
For this lil site as a blogger,
13. celebrate five years of blogging =))
14. do a tutorial, hopefully i could pull this off because the last two times i said i am gonna do it, i didn't..
15. twice the blog views ! THIS ISH GONNA BE SO HARD !
part of 2013's
- straight As in STPM
- earn my own, not to take pocket money from the family anymore
- achieve my own ****, be well known for something
- do something for my life, build my path
last year, i really set my resolutions and went all out for it, so this year's resolution, i really hope i can achieve it =))
so, since ubi keep bugging me for a post for him here, hahah... but before i go further, ubi, if you are seeing this, i want you to know that your blog is very dead =.= hahahah ! so better do something with it aites !
my favourite picture of you =))
i want to say thank you and sorry eventhough i've been saying that for god knows how many times..
i am those kind of girl that says really harsh stuff and yes, really mean things that no one in this world would believe those words were utter out from my mouth, i say it to you everytime we argue, everytime i am unhappy with things, everytime i am upset with things around me..
but baby (have to change it to baby because ubi sounds weird to be blend in with this sentimental post, hahaha) you never said those stuff back to me, everytime i say i hate you, you will reply i love you... this is how you hold on to me and i am grateful...
i know by typing all this, there is the tendency that i will be criticize once again but i am putting up my courage to tell the world how good you were to me, the times when i shout at you, telling you the guy i was thinking before i sleep isn't you, but you just kept quiet and said softly with love that you will try your best to be back the guy that i think of every night before i sleep...
i don't know whats wrong with me? i still believe nothing last forever and guys always go for better looking girls, i don't know why? sometimes i ask myself whats wrong with me?
you've hold me slowly, with care, taking care of me no matter how much i shout that i don't want you to treat me like a baby, i am an adult now... but i realise, it doesn't work, to you, i am always that lil baby that cannot take care of herself..
you've been saving so much just to spend it on me, even till now, hard times like now... thank you baby (controlling the urge to write ubi), thank you so much..
i kept asking you last night, what makes you so special for me to hold on compare to all the guys out there? the truth is, i know it myself...
baby, thank you for believing me, remember the time that i told you i want to do something and to be well known of it? i don't even trust myself, i mean, this is a hard thing, being well known? damn, who am i kidding ! but... you have faith in me, you say i can do it and you know i can and that moment, it was like this an invincible electric buzzing inside my body, there was this gulp at my throat and it hurts a lil...
remember the time when i keep shouting inside the car? and by writing this, i realise i shout a lot, hahahah ! okay, so it was in the car, and i was shouting like crazy because i was stressing the way out on road and you were like driving and calming down me the same time while stressing out yourself, its kinda funny thinking back though, i was so cute, hahahahah !
remember how you would kiss my hand everytime i leave? it feels so nice, feels like being treated like a lil princess ! eventhough you do that everytime in public, and it kinda freaks me out a lil =))
remember how you would cry and i can just end the call and never call back? *exhales, baby i am sorry, i know i've not been good and no matter how many times i've said i change, i didn't ! let me tell you now, baby, i won't change =)) i will still call you childish, i will still show you my sweat look everytime you give me your lame jokes, i will still wing chun you everytime, so beware... when we get old, i will keep nagging you, i will nag, nag and nag... so, be prepare aites !
baby, we have a love like this =))
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